Today I’m in a reflective mood which is fitting since today is Thursday, a perfect day for throwbacks from the past. I’m listening to Lauryn Hill’s “To Zion” about her pregnancy experience with her son and I think about my own experience so far…A nervous excitement.

I remember the week I found out I might be pregnant. I had just comeback from a bachelorette weekend in New Orleans (doing the things you do in New Orleans) and that Sunday night I had a dream that my soon to be mother-in-law was throwing me a baby shower and there was a big sign that said “it’s a boy!” and all of my friends were there. That was my first inkling that something might be up and from there the universe continued to hit me on the head with the concept for the next few days.

The signs were amazing and plentiful. My aunt commented on a picture from that weekend and told me that I was “glowing” to which I truthfully responded that I had gotten a chemical peel the prior week. During that same day on Instagram, @expectingmothers page started following me out of the blue!  There were about 3 other things that lead me to believe that it might be real and I began to let the idea settle.

My BFF Ashlee joined me at the doctor that Wednesday, when my doctor officially confirmed that I was expecting! Finding this information out a few months before my wedding, I began to think about all the plans I had for my wedding including that beautiful custom dress that I had made almost a year prior. When I asked my doctor if it was okay to continue to “diet” because I had a wedding dress to fit into she almost bit my head off and made Ashlee swear to make sure I ate. She was definitely being overly dramatic, but I from that moment I mentally (and secretly) changed all gears from wedding mode to baby mode. On my wedding day getting into my dress wasn’t the easiest task, but I made it!

Looking back on the last year, it’s so fitting that I found the Ralph Waldo Emerson quote listed in one of my notebooks from a lecture by Robin Roberts –  “Life is a journey, not a destination.” This quote has so much meaning. We all have goals and things we hope to accomplish in life, but whether it takes us a long time to achieve them or we get there quickly, there is still so much life to live. We have to take the time to enjoy each moment in life because we never know at what moment life chooses to end. So as I look back, I’m going to enjoy each day, each trial and each accomplishment and live my life to the fullest.

– L

P.S. My friend Madelyn Brene is throwing a concert entitled #TBT on October 15th, check her out! http://www.madelynbrene.com/-tbt-.html